One new year to the next

The new year has been ushered in.
The party is over.
The bills have been paid.
The reality has sunk in.
The grind has begun.
The year is unfolding day by day.
How is it different from the ones that have gone by?
How is it going to carve a niche for itself in the sands of time?
How am I going to remember this year more than any other year?
Why will this year be more special?
What does this year have that others didn't have?
Will this mark the beginning of my search?
Will it mark the end of my search?
Will it set me upon a journey of discovery?
Will it set me upon rediscovering things I have forgotten?
when will I be able to answer the whats,the whys and the hows????
Will I usher in the next with the same questions???

I begin

A new beginning today..three minutes to eight in the evening....

I always think,I need to write.But something stopped me,kept me confined.I need to break open the confines and I did just that.

Why do we confine ourselves?Why do we define ourselves?Why do we limit ourselves?Why are there roles to be played?Why are there boundaries all around?

I think to release me to push all limitations,to feel what the boundless would be like.The boundaries define the boundless,the inanimate defines the animate,the confines define the limitlessness of space.

Time and again I an bound by my roles,by my duties,by my relationships.All this is essential to the human spirit.It craves for love,it craves for affection.It craves for admiration,it craves for attention.Who would not want to be treated like royalty?Who would not want to cuddle a child and enjoy the gurgle?Who would not want to be courted and loved?The spirit craves to be confined.The spirit craves to be free.This is my beginning,this is my journey..........an eternal clash of ideas and values.