the mind that matters over the matters of the heart.....

Confusion abounds,chaos reigns,
the heart cannot hear what the mind wants to say.
As it lies bleeding upon the thorns of self made misery, the mind rattles advice,
matters of the mind do not matter to it.
it weeps in desolation,it weeps in failure,
it lacks the courage ,it lacks the conviction,it lacks the charm ,it lacks the confidence,
it sheds tears of agony,of conflict and of guilt.
the mind is chattering above all this,the pragmatic mind,the unfeeling mind,
the practical mind,the rational mind,
it sees no chaos,it sees no confusion,it only sees a new path,a path now that has to be taken,
a path that the heart does not want to see....the path that brings the heart face to face with its failure....
the failure that sleeps now,but still bleeds,the failure that is quiet now tumultuously.......

The old man and the auto

Sunday evening..just finished shopping at the santacruz market. The usual evening mania..no autorickshaw driver wants to go east.East in Mumbai especially Kalina is like poison.After the floods in Mumbai Kalina is perpetually flooded for these guys.Half an agitated hour later we got one old man in his auto.Very gracefully he asked my huge hubby darling to shift to the right side of the vehicle as the left tyre did not have much air in it!!!!As we began the journey the old man began small talk..where in Kalina do you want to go? Did you always stay where you are staying now?Kadamwadi,responded hubby dear,and no we stayed behind 'King of fashion and Queen of Fashion'(Landmarks once upon a time..now hardly anyone notices it!!!) So there they got talking about how Kalina can never lose its charm and how once a Kalinian always a Kalinian!!!
Then the old Man asked him do you have an elder balding brother.....Yes hubby replied!!!! then Said the old man from 1973 to 76 I have delivered milk in your house!!!! Boy o Boy ,I was a little boy then replied my hubby!!!
The whole incident got me thinking.People come in and go out of our lives with a purpose.The old man had come back with just a little purpose of rekindling some old memories in my hubby,just with the purpose of showing us that the old order that valued the place once was now slowly loosing out to the sheer commercial world where we don't know each other.......